Two Strange"R"

What a strange life we have… sometimes very easy to understand and sometimes very difficult to understand.. sometimes very lucky sometimes very unlucky.. but I know that this is life.. Strange Life.
What if one find a strange girl in this strange life.. This is what happend with me.. I found one strange”R” and it has become now so strange for me that I don't know how I can understand that girl so deeply? How I know almost everything about her? But she is the girl who really does not want anyone to show the mirror of her. And I know why she does not want that.. Because she knows everything about her.. she knows what she is.. she wants to keep those things to her.. she knows that this world will damn care about her.. about her feelings.. She does not want herself to show to this dirty world that she had not been happy inside but had been pretending to be happy.. people always find the smile, so good on her lips.. but never cared about why she is bound to wear that smile.. she is not happy inside.. She is the girl who does not want people to have two faces on them but she knows that this world is so bad.. and everybody try to just show there beautiful face but tries to hide the horn on their head which will hurt someone a day..
I now know a girl, she is Strange”R”. But I want to tell you that you are not a stranger for me… I don’t know how I know you but I know you for the fact. I know you don’t like me understanding you and bringing those things up in front of you, which is buried deep inside your beautiful heart. But I keep bringing those and you get angry, you get rude.. but why cant you believe that you got someone like you.. That’s me.. just like you.. but I guess you don’t like it because you wanted to be always unique. But you found that you are not the only one of your type.. but the same God made you.. made me as well with many similarities between us.. I know that strange”R”.. Oh ! God I love to have a Strange”R” who is not a stranger.. please tell her.. not to go away from me.. Thanks for giving me that strange”R”

Happy New Year 2013 – Make Resolution

Funny New Year Resolutions:

> I won’t take bath everyday, this is my bit to conserve water.
> I promise to stick to these resolutions for more than a week.
> I will learn what the “resolution” means.
> I will not hang around girls because they think I love them.
> I will not bore my boss by with the same excuse for taking leaves. I will think of some more excuses.
> Will try to smoke more, since it will keep the tobacco workers on their job, & they wont be jobless.
> I promise to be nice to my dog. I won’t starve him to death more than 10 times…. in a month.
> I will stop giving excuses to my girlfriend for being late on every date. And, I am not lying this time.
> I will stop sitting idle. Would rather utilize my precious time by sitting on Facebook.
> I will stop peeping into my girlfriend’s male friends profile on facebook.
> I will change my undergarments everyday.
> I will not stare at other girls, when with my girlfriend, though I am not sure when I’d be alone.
> If someone would ask me for choosing one between Babes and Bikes. Babes, I sympathize with you.
Wackiest New Year Resolutions:
> I will stop biting my nails as some places in my nose have become unreachable.
> I will save money from this new year. And, making missed calls tops my to-do list.
> I will stop sniffing my socks every time I take them off.
> I will try to find out the reason behind me having an email id on almost every e-mail service which exists.
> I will stop irritating my Facebook friends by storming their wall with Farmville updates.
> I will stop changing my profile picture 100 times a day, now I would change it only 10 times.
> I vow to brush my teeth everyday. Oh ! please exclude Sunday from everyday.
> I will stop replying with K, LOL, to my friends’ texts.
Serious New Year Resolutions:
> I will mend broken relationships.
> I will focus more on giving rather than taking.
> I will make it sure to give my love a good night kiss whenever he/she sleeps, and a peck on his/her forehead even before sun’s rays wake him/her up.
> I will quit smoking. Not for me, but for my family.
> I will stand by my love come what may.
> Every morning I would say these words to my Love, “Give me all of your tears and take from me all of my smiles”.
> I would try to become my kid’s best friend.
> I will do my bit to stop corruption in my country.
> I would never ever doubt my Love’s commitment for me. And, this is a resolution for the whole life.
> I will not crib about things, would rather remain content for what has life given to me.
How to make a New Year resolution:
> Although many of us make a New Year resolution at the beginning of a New Year but we do it more out of a custom than with actual planning. Also, people don’t spare much thought in finding out what he/she will actually like to achieve in the year. Hence, the success rate with New Year resolution is actually poor. Some tips therefore can become handy in making your New Year resolution a success.
> Fix your target: What is really important to you? What do you want to achieve in the coming days? Setting your priorities will help you set your New Year’s resolution better.
> Make a realistic promise: When we promise, we promise big, without really considering the possibilities of achieving it at the end. This is one of the major causes of higher failure rate with New Year’s resolutions. Hence, make yourself a realistic promise.
> Make an optimistic promise: Try and look at the positive side of the promise. Leave the negative ideas aside. Hence, instead of saying that ‘I’ll not be late at my appointments’ say ‘henceforth, I’ll reach everywhere in time’. The positive tone will help you improve your chances of success.
> Break down big goals: If you have promised yourself a big thing set small targets at first. Instead of looking at the big task on the whole, taking small steps towards achieving it will help you to reach the target easily.
> Develop other habit: We all know that some habits are hard to change. Hence, the best way to change an old habit is by developing other engagement. If you have decided to quit smoking, find another engagement which will relax you and will take your mind away from smoking.
> Never Forget: What you need to do after you have made the resolution and always keep a track what you have achieved & what yet need to be achieved.


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One in Billions !!

When i was miles away,

I rested in your thoughts..

whispering in your ears,

hugging you tight.. 

lips are sealed tongue is tied,

look into my eyes.. 

read through unspoken words..

holding me so tight..

The one thing that i wanna say

I whisper.. to the one in billions.. 

but you are million miles away.. 

I Love You.. more than the trillions...!!

When my eyes are closed..

When my eyes are closed,

take me to a place, so warm and safe

right there, i see your face, your beauty.

even when you are 80,

the beauty that can never be replaced.

A smile to pull out of the grief,

an embrace to feel out of the blue,

a place to hide more..

there i will always be.. 

let the sun burn out and moon to fade

No matter what, will always be there,

the love i have got, will never fade.

when you are alone and sad

go to the place so warm  and safe,

I wait there opening my arms..

patiently waiting even when I'm no more..!

The Last Time..

Sitting on the edge of the roof,

all numb to get scared,

hitting up by the proof,

you were the only one..

the one to make me smile,

the one who could give me all her heart,

to make me walk a mile,

even when she is hurt & i'm hurt..

every ounce of my soul,

every drop of my blood here,

would want only you..

if you could be here..

the last time, I would touch,

the last time, I would feel..

the last time, I would hear,

the last time, I would live..

... just in love of you!!

Your Smile..

I know there's two faces,

facing different places.

But the feelings, one,

since the heart is one.

Ask your heart once,

If you close your eyes.

Who you want around.

When the emotions are high

whose hug you want around.

I know it's just difficult.

But what makes it impossible.

Hold my hand,

& we will make it possible.

Every smile that I see,

makes it easier.

Every pal with you,

makes it closer.

P.S.: Keep Smiling Love..!!

LOST

Where am I looking at,

What am I looking for.

What way to go out,

What way to come in.

Lot of queries to ask,

Lot of memories to erase.

Lot of things unsaid,

Lot of things undone.

This is what we get mad after,

this is what we get sad after.

This is what, was before,

This is what, is today.

We knew all of 'em.

But were still lost yesterday.

& lost untill today.

Will be lost forever untill the time ends!!

Questions to God!

 I wonder why "life" is a web of complicated roads, when everyone has a common start n the common end. Why we are supposed to go through different ways. I don't know what God had in his mind while engineering human but as far as I know everyone meant to be live together like friends in brotherhood. So they are supposed to walk along on the way to death after they are born. But why they get different lives to live. When they can accompany each other like friends and make each other's life simple. Simple to live and simple to die. A life full of simplicity.

Anyways, God gave us what we were supposed to get. We are not one of the best creatures of the God but the most complicated creatures of God because everything that happens here in this world either good or bad humans are responsible for that. I wonder where's God, what role does he play. Is he only supposed to give life and take life. What about the rest, rest that we live. Seems like we are an entertainer to God, isn't it? He just watch us playing our roles and the only role that he plays is to give life and then to take life. I want to scream out and ask to that God we all are your sin, then why do you have to let us live like soulless life? Why we don't see happiness around? Why every human says they aren't happy? Why everyone has got a pain? We spend our life just after one thing i.e., running after happiness. We say that human has got endless desire and that's why humans can never be happy. But I want to ask that God who's sitting somewhere in heaven, who's responsible for making us, when he blessed us with everything then why he had to bless us with endless desire? Is it because he never wanted to see us happy? I tried finding an answer to it but the only answer I got every time is he never wanted us to be happy. :(

Why God? I don't want to be an entertainer to you just take my life and show me hell. Because for now there's no where hell than living on this earth with this life. Take away all I have, let me born again maybe then I can live a desire less life. A life without any wish.

Hope you answer my questions when I happen to meet you!

I guess we all have this question to God, isn't it?

Anonymous (part II)

Sometimes, I feel like that God locked me in such a black glass box through which I can see this complete world, and no one can see me. I can feel what they go through but none can feel me. I can see them laughing sharing their happiness but no one cares whether I am happy or not. When the people out are happy gives me a little smile burying the extreme pain inside for not even been able to share my smile with anyone. It all goes inside this black glass. I get all those feelings that they can feel, yet I am so isolated. I cry alone for me and for their pain. I smile alone when they are happy. I scream in this loneliness that I want to be happy, I want someone to be there with me when I am in pain, when I am in tears. Want someone to wipe off my tears. I am screaming for help but none can hear my voice. Its all me inside, its all my loneliness inside.

Living in the walls of your own thought consisting all the emotions waiting to burst out.. but nobody knows whats up with you, that's where you lived that anonymous life. Look at the faces around and ask yourself is there anyone like you, who you think he/she knows you ? And they might have the similar question in their heart too. So that's how we all are different in this world with different feelings, different beauty, different intelligence and everyone is unique ! So do you and so do I. So never judge anyone on your understanding. Give as much love as you can. Because they need more of love than you so don't hate them.

I sit back at the glass and watch days passing by including all festivals and occasions, nobody ever wished me a good day but I wish them all. I ask myself, why I had been hated for too long yet I am surviving in this hope that someday, someone will be a part of me, will share all that I have got. And will give me all their love just to see me smile once. I know that someone, will never let me die alone being anonymous. Don't know when but one day I will share this anonymity with someone anonymous like me.

Do you wait for someone like that ?

She's the One !

She's the one I am destined to..

She's the one I am in love with..

She's the one without who I can't live..

She's the dream for who I would sleep forever..

I don't think a breath without her..

this world means no more without her.

Oh! God this life, let me live for her..

Oh! God this life, let it end only for her.

Let me born again..

I want to love her again.

B'coz she's the best..

she is the prettiest.

She's my morning and she's the night..

She's my life and she's the death.

She's unique and she's the one..

 She's my truth and she's the fun.

Anonymous (part I)

You might be thinking why this title "Anonymous", but do you realize ever what life we live. We have got such a huge world with numerous countries and Islands which all together makes a population of 2 billion people.
But do you have that one person in your life who can completely understand you, who can devote all their life just for you and die just for you.

How you will feel like when you will have that one person to unconditionally love you throughout. I know it sounds like a dream coming true but trust me if you ever happen to find that person you will never ever cry out, your life will seem like a bed of roses. Anyways, how strange is it ? You spend whole life finding one person to love you and you can't find one, how unfair is that to mankind !!?

Had been living alone for years in the boundaries of my own thoughts, never found one who could really have taken me out of those boundaries. I feel more pity when someone comes to you stays for a while gives you hope that they will take you out but at the end they leave you making those boundaries more stronger and taller which you can neither jump nor break. The good thing about the walls(boundaries) that nobody can come inside too. So again a lesser hope to find someone for yourself. So you live an anonymous life where no one knows you.

Are you living that Anonymous life too .. ??


p.s. : Second part is also up hope you will like that too.

Love You More..

When I look into your eyes,

my heart wants to sing a song.

When I feel you close in my heart,

my hand wants to write a song

When you touch me with your love,

my soul wants to love you all (my life).

 When you stand by my side,

my will wants to fight for our life.

When you put your faith in me,

I just be the best in me.

When I see the pain in you.

I just want to die for you.

I just want to love you more,

I just want to feel you more,

I just want to see you more,

(with all your love...)

 I just want you to live me more.

Let My Heart Break Today !

Let me get mad again,

Let me love that someone again.

She knew I loved her again-n-again.

Even when we could not talk,

Even when we could not see,

Even when we could not touch.

But.. every time we felt,

Felt each other so close..

Just like this "You♥ME".

Let not the day come
when we fall apart..
then we walk apart

when you break my heart

Let that day come today
when you break my heart
Let it be "Today"
'cause dont want my heart to break morrow
when I am in so much love..
Dont want to live without you morrow
Let it be "Today"
'cause let not my heart to break morrow.

There can't be my happiness without you !
There can't be my sorrow without you !
There can't be my morrow without you !
There can't be my today without you !

P.S.: So, let today be the day when you break my heart and go away because I don't want my pity heart to cry tomorrow when I can't find you any more in my life.

Rain Again

I wish the sky to rain

and I could kiss you again

Stealing you from the crowd

Hiding you in my arms around

Oh! God let the sky rain

let me fall again

again in the love of that wet girl

The rain drops rolling on her lips

making me loose again

People running for shelter

She is looking at me like a melter

My heart is pounding

your eyes staring

staring into my soul

Thinking of this makes me

smile so bright

trying to hold on to you tight

I just can't wait..

wait to see you again

Oh! Sky please rain.. rain again..

Mist on the Leaf

It was the night

that leaf was alone in the dark

lost in herself

Scared in the dark..

Then the mist fell in her arms!!

They hugged, they kissed, they loved

Loved till the morning

Mist rolled all over

touching and kissing all the corners of leaf

Its the leaf who knew

what she felt through out the night

There it was, the morning

Mist was shining in the light

leaf swinging and blushing

loving each other more was the great fight

Fight of love through out the night

Oh! heat !! Heat of sun was too bad

Mist started to dry

dry like the tears in the eyes of leaf

Leaf started getting still and numb

She could only feel the pain of separation
gonna miss him through out her life

It was the end

mist is yet in the arms

somewhere lost in the veins of leaf

running through the life in her

But she wont ever forget

that night and the fight,

fight of loving more

My Incomplete Love..

I want to see you like the sun shining

Feel like the warmth in the winter

Touch me like the rain when its raining,

Oh ! I am gonna stand  right there.. 

Wait for you.. passing every season..

Just for you.. and no one else !!

You run through my breath,

making me feel alive..

You crawl through my skin,

making me feel again..

Oh ! You are the love..

Love to wait forever..

Love to be with.. ever..

You are the faith I am gonna keep ever,

You are the time I am gonna live in, ever..

You may see the world with your open eyes

But do see me when you close your eyes ever

You gonna find me.., me smiling there..

Find the only one who only smile for you ever

You gonna find.. I was always there

Watching you being happy or in tears..

Watching you being alone or in crowd..

Oh ! I was always there.. there for you forever..

It's like the incomplete poem..

My life would be so incomplete

So please let her know..

When she is around..

that my waiting is ever.. 

And I am gonna wait forever

***Like this poem ~~ my Love will always be incomplete for you even when I die.. Since I want to love you more and more and this life is not enough to love you completely**

A walk through the battle ground !! (part 1)

(it's the first part)
When its the dark around..

This world seems to be sleeping around..

I go for a walk.

A walk through my thoughts..

Too many reasons for that !!

I know, I should have slept

But I cant stop..

Oh ! Please don't stop

I need to think around,

Am I leading my life right ?

I know I am driving through storm

Everything is lost..
I ask should I be lost too ?
Some part of me says Yes
But the other says No.
What to do.. Its a fight within !!
How to sleep its a fight within !!
So every night when the night sleeps
I am awake,
On a walk through my thoughts,
A walk through a battle ground.
Its not just thought..
But a walk through the battle ground..



(it's the first part to be continued...)


 

Lonely Night

Look Around,

Day is passing by..

Night is taking over..

I see the dark around

I am feeling lonely

a little scared.

Oh! Where are you my friend,

hurry up.. come near

come close & hold my hand

I don't want to be left alone.

Everything is disappearing again

This darkness is eating up

I wonder, if

I will disappear too.

But, please hold my hand

I may not see you

But make me feel

You are there

ever and forever

standing by me!!

There is no one

to hear my silence

to see me

to know me

Its all I'm going through now

I am waiting my friend

come and hold me again

 I want to be seen by you

I want to be felt by you

Save me from this monster dark

Oh!! my Friend

Help Me

I might not be there ever

calling you.

I am afraid

This night will kill me

Ease me.

 Oh! my Friend!!

Fly Again

I am a flier..

But

The wings are broken now..

Like the dreams are broken now..

No one is around to see..

No one is around to feel..

My pain is exploding

Taking my breathe away..

But I know..

I need to live longer..

Its not the end

I need to fly higher

Because I will fly again..

You people with an eye

will see me flying

 And then you all,

a time will make you blind

since, I will fly high &

I will be out of your sight

 Look at me now..

You might not get a chance,

to see me in real.

Because I am the dream.

Long to live

Long to fight

because, now

have got the Broken dreams

& these Broken wings

Let my wound heal

 then I will disappear

Since I will fly again

fly again at the highest

Oh! I am going to FLY AGAIN!!

When I Need You..

When I need you.. at a time everybody in this world need that someone who can ease them with the several emotional tides going in them. When I say emotional tides I mean the ups and downs of the life.. which we face everyday. Everyday we face something that makes us happy or sometimes sad. But do we not need someone to share each time that we live in? Well.. I need all the time that someone who can really bring the life LIVE.

There's no point of living a life just for self, no one to cheer your happiness, no one to express their sincere condolence when you are all surrounded by just sorrows and loneliness. Well I live my life for That someone who I need at all the time. I know we cant be together all the time but still I don't stop sharing my time with that beautiful, we have miles in between but still my love every time can travel more miles to be with her. For me to be with her it's so simple just close my eyes and be in the world that you want to be. And when I close my eyes the only world I am into, is the world of You & I love. I have so much love to give you and I don't want my time and the distance between us keep us apart even for a minute, since you know life is too short to love someone prettier than love. I will keep closing my eyes to be with my love even when it will be the end of my life. And when I am closing my eyes forever that means I am going to be with my love forever now. No more a distance of miles or a distance of times.
Just Love You Forever.

♥♥

I Need..

♥♥

As we all know that life is a "STORM" that keeps you blowing with the wind of time. Sometimes it makes you fly high in the SKY or sometimes it throws you to the earth and again it pics you up.. Thats how it keeps going. I am living a life too within that storm. Like the way no one knows next time you gonna be on the earth or may be in the earth or will be flying in the sky high with all your dreams getting true. My life is same, full of uncertainty that keeps your life rocking since you always need to be on your toes to survive, since you just can not get killed either by someone or by yourself. Because its a PRECIOUS life that God has given to learn. But I keep wondering that throughout our life we keep learning things until we die when we will do the last Mathematics of living then exactly we can say that we know most of life. I want to live a day, when I know my certain future. I am not saying that I need some power to change my future but I just need a day, when i can look at people and smile with a thought that I am not one of you who doesn't know that what your coming time gonna bring for you but I am one of them who knows the future, my future. Umm.. The best day to know about will be the day of my death. When only I will know that I am going to die, God is taking off all my pain that I went through my whole life, bearing, crying and dragging my life. I will look at the world with my wet eyes and a little smile on lips saying with a silent word that I am no more going to be a part of you, its enough of the hatred to me by you all. Now with no body and just with a soul I will be loved.. loved again by the GOD.

♥♥

Valentine L♥ve

Let my words shed away everything and lay you down upon the silken touch of my verses, my stanzas caressing every inch of your sultry innocence bringing you exquisite pleasures arousing every inch of your body and you open yourself to me like a flower opening to the spring sun and my words penetrate you the way that you wish, filling you with my love, my passion… my desire… making your body shiver in pure bliss till the climactic pleasure floods through you as we now are one soul… one spirit… Entwining your heart to mine is such passion that will never end, making love to you and touching you in one place no other man ever can… your heart. And all you need to share this with you is for you to say one word…. Yes… Yes… Yes.

♥♥

Its the Kiss..♥♥

Its the kiss when… the world around us dissolves and we become two lost souls. No, found. We become two souls locked in love’s sweet desire… where our hearts sing out serenades of passion. My darling, come and become one with me… Let the inhibitions fade away. Open yourself to my heart’s affections. Let me caress you, cherish you with all I am… Absorbed in our passion and freeing our desires, we succumb to the romance of the moment, showing our hearts’ longing and delighting in the tranquility of love between us. Oh exquisite is the feel, the taste of your naked body while my fingers are tracing your frame so gently so slowly, making your skin tremble… Shortly sweet ecstasy is embraced, words are no longer needed as we engage in a single kiss that speaks a thousand words..

With our hearts soaring on wings of angels, our bodies become one, limbs entwine… Yet it is so much more than mere carnal pleasure. It is a love so true and strong that will last until the end of time.

♥♥

Valentine..♥

Very often, I sit thinking of you, always thankful for what you mean to me; loving you more each day… I know it’s possible, even when my spirit seems to have no words. Now, I am coming to you… heart in hand one more time just like before… You look deeply Into my eyes, into my soul where nothing escapes your great love. Ever for me hold you close to my heart, sheltering you in my loving arms, delivering to you the warmth of my devotion, Allowing your heart to open to me… And I wonder.. Would you mind if I were yours and you were mine? Would you mind being my Dear Sweet Valentine?

What does my three words mean to You ? ☻

Just three little words don’t seem like enough for someone whose smile still brightens my day, whose feeling can make me forget the rest of the world. They don’t seem like enough for someone who’s always been there to be with me when everything goes my way and to hold my hand when my whole world seems to fall apart. But even though “I Love You” can’t express the depth of my feelings for you. I hope you know what’s in my heart. Because loving you means more to me than anything in the world and it always will.. ♥♥

Just a Friend..

As I sat here I was trying to think of all the times you hurt me and made me cry. . . Hoping and wishing it would make me like you less. But it didn’t. Because all the times I could remember were the ones when you showed me that you cared. . . I didn’t want to believe that you ever did You walk by me everyday and say hello. Everyday you take time out to listen to me. You talk to me, smile at me, laugh with me, and have fun with me. Well, I talk, smile and laugh too, but inside I’m hurting. Deep down it hurts to be with you because I love you and I am only a friend to you..

Slept Forever :(

I looked up wondering why is she gone
I looked up seeing her face telling me the story
I looked up wondering how it could have been
I Cried out for her name to be found
I Cried out for our love to be born
I Cried for our lives to be true
I Cried out for her voice to be called
I Cried out for her heart to be mine
I demanded for her love
I demanded for my star
I daydreamed that from now on we are never to be
I sat down wondering how comes
I sat down looking at her ways
I sat down seeing the end
I sat down listing to her goodbyes
I sat down wondering why am i in this pain
I sat down thinking how could i love her
I sat down dreaming on how i could love anyone like her
I sat down..& I slept.. slept forever..